Hello, there!

This has been quite a long journey and quite a long time since I’ve written anything here.  I have been intimidated about updating the blog because, somehow, I feel like I need to update my journey from the time of the last post.  The thought of that is daunting, so I avoid it.  I think I’ll just pick up from where I am now and add some flashbacks here and there that may explain the ride.

Today isn’t a great day though.  I’ve been pretty overwhelmed by a family situation and I don’t feel like digging deep into my spiritual belief development (or devolution, whichever).  I will say this.  Today, I am really feeling the need to confront the issue of prayer.

I don’t really pray much these days — at least not in the sense that I once conceived of the word.  I meditate more than I ever have and I have conversations with that voice within that has always been my Guide, even when I called it Jesus.  It’s still the same voice now, which I interchangeably acknowledge as God or my highest Self, the Source, Love, All that Is.  The difference is that I don’t spend time asking (praying for) things to be different, given to me, changed etc.  I take responsibility for creating my own reality in that sense.  But when it comes to other people, I don’t know what to do.  I’m still figuring that out.  I really don’t pray for other people — but I’m feeling the need or desire to right about now.

Still sorting it all out. Obviously.